#for all i know id be totally normal about it now. but idk

[boypussydilf]

i GOTTA rewatch hlvrai but i fear that it will once again fling me into the deepest throes of insanity not that that’s a bad thing but like im not ready for that. im busy

[rubys-domain]

so... i think i've achieved consistent one-phase pyro regisvine by leveling up kazuha's burst to 6 and bennett's aquila favonia to 85. which is good. but it can be better. i want to get to the point where popping chongyun's burst is enough to kill it. for now i still have to do some normals and a second pop of his skill in order to kill it

[moonydoodlez]

i dont even know how to ask this because i just want one thing well two actually u change my mind alastor without his jacket all messy like (you know what i mean) AND HIS HAIR UP IN A LITTLE PONYTAIL OR BUN IDC IDK ITS JUST UP AND IM DROOLING

Im gonna eat you

Pairing: Alastor x F!reader

Warnings: the only warning is the fact that i wrote this at 3 am so enough said.. but also there lowkey really horny...

Wordcount: 524

Note: Eveytime i see art of this man with his hair up lord have mercy.. id devour him actually.

You have known Alastor for a long time now. You had met him while you were both still alive. Although there were bans on alcohol at the time, you were able to sneak your way into a speakeasy. You sat at the damp gross bar waiting for the man to serve you. Of course being a woman he took his sweet time before ever asking you what you’d like. However a tall slender man walked up to you. He was wearing all red and wore a smirk that seemed to never leave his lips. After a night of drinking and doing things a lady shouldn't have done you went home fulfilled… and filled. To your dismay never seeing the man again.

That was until you ended up in hell for a cute murdering spree or whatever. You walked around aimlessly before bumping into two girls by accident. The girl with long blonde hair apologized frantically which just made you stare at her annoyed. You hated overly happy people. Of course the happy girl asked you to her hotel in which you totally thought she was trying to have a threesome, but really she was just being nice.

After months of living in this hotel and ‘trying’ to get better so you could be redeemed. Which you thought was a load of bullshit because why would you wanna get better when you're already better than everyone. During those months though you had gotten very close to Alastor. You had spent many nights with him, not always of sexual nature of course. 

One morning though you woke up and you quickly realized he was gone from your bed. Which wasn’t normal usually after being with you he wanted to be as close as possible. You looked around the room to see if maybe he just decided not to sit on the bed. Your eyes widened as he came out of the bathroom with no shirt on and just pants. To make matters worse he had his hair in a little ponytail. His hair wasn’t quite long enough to have all his hair up so there were little bits sticking off the side and sticking out from under where it was pulled up. You stared at him like you could have devoured him right in that moment.

“What” His staticy voice broke you out of your thoughts. He slowly walked toward you, joining you in bed again. He began talking about god knows what but you could focus on his hair at this moment.

“This is new” You say, interrupting him, reaching your hand up to his hair. “Very hot” You breath heavily watching him, watching how he sat there so slutty without even realizing.

His head whipped to you as he realized how you were ogling him like some object. “You think?” He whispered sultrily as his hand came up to grip your throat. 

You let out a whimper as he brings your face to his before kissing you slowly. So slow it almost hurt how badly you wanted him at that moment. You were aching for his attention, attention only he could ever give you.

Masterlist Alastor Masterlist

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

👁️👁️🔂👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️

cringe at myself.....,.....

im aa FOOOOOLLLLLLLL 🫥

Sometimes i think, im a real artist or something..

But whats even real about me? everything i do only exists online

majority of it being on TUNBLR of all places.

fragile fucking tumblr.

my entire life is my imagination and fantasies my entire life is a thoughtform. how can i be a real artist if im barely even a real person in "reality".

not even banishedgirl but intangible girl.

The other day, when i posted about how i want to use the inter net less but im too lonely to stop, i feel it came back to bite me today, in a way i didnt want at all, for the short time my blog was gone, and this brought to my attention, how truly deeply foolish i am

i could disappear so fast like nothing because its all just 👉🧠💭 up here

Even tho my blog is back now. i cant get that feeling off of me. Like yeah there no reason my blog would actually be deleted, unless you know like, tumblr just got discontinued as a website. Which is not an unlikely scenario. i often wonder how long they'll keep paying for these servers. We saw what happened with myspace...

if tumblr was gone, id really be GONE gone

like. i dont exist.

sick to my stomach all day. even if i export my blog and put it on a hard drive ... does it even matter? it literally is not even "matter" it is pixels it is thin air.

How do i be a real girl in the real world

in utena , the "real world" is actually all an illusion. and i believe that to be true for our world too. In a way ive always believed my fantasies and spirits are more real than my body

But i still do want to exist here. i almost have to live in denial about this to stay sane. But i want to exist forever. i want a normal life and friends. i want normal things.. its disgusting.. i feel sick!!!!! im so happy but im so miserable. i love myself but im so insecure. i dont understand anything. i resent fakeness but im fake too. im all just words and space and airy air air

How do i change my life how do i stop yearning to Prove that i exist..... Why do i want to prove it so bad

WHY DID I HAVE TO BE CONFRONTED W THIS TODAY WHAT AM I BEING CALLED TO DO

Like dude i am already going thru it lately. i didnt need any more crisisfuel.

IDK i have to believe its some kind of catalyst to save myself , lest i succumb to the void

it has to show me something i needed to see.

Stuff like this makes me want to disappear in a way that i have total agency over. (Not like in a killing my self way but just in a going away way.) Thats not practical though is it i know thats my evil side talking.

trapped in a sticky web trapped in this glue trap thats what gets me all defiant.

the book im reading rn is from the 70s. i wish i was writing books not posts... i wish i was meeting people in real life the way the author describes in the book. I know the vainly imagined past doesnt hold all the answers either. Good chance i wouldve been institutionalized for woman hysteria or st. But i dont like whats happening here i dont feel natural at all. And its not just me who feels it, clearly.

if only i could be the one who finds comfort in impermenance.

do i accept what im dissatisfied with, do i try to change, or both, or neither?

i am sad

i am existentially disturbed

and i am fucking arrogant 🥴

for wanting to be real.

FUCK!!!!! ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

[stormblessed95]

I know this is a boring convo for yall. But Jimin literally sees JK likes his brother from another mom. Nothing he said about his album or during the show adds up to your theory of them being boyfriends. Dont forget he said whether he can even love someone (i didnt saw any Jikookers mentioning it as it wasn't translation error or album theme but his irl words) I don't think JK remotely comes to his ideal type nor he have that type of feelings for JK. I'm not talking about goofy talks they do for a lil funny moment infront of cam. But the real Park Jimin behind the cam totally sees JK as his brother.

Boring? No, id love a boring ask. Annoying and repetitive? Yes.

Are you trying to change my mind? Why? What does it matter to you? What you think of their relationship doesn't matter to me.

This post, also for you

Because the whole "your theory" comment. Bitch I KNOW you didn't read my posts. Especially because of your "I didn't see any jikookers mentioning it" comment. Because I did. And I even highlighted it in red. Sooooo take your stupid ass opinions to your own blog. Or at least to jikookers who are doing whatever the fuck you are accusing them of. Or at a very bare minimum, read the posts about the theories you are mentioning in the blog you decide to message. Because all this does is make me roll my eyes at you. Zero of any kind of productive conversation with this sort of ask.

I can't and won't give a shit about your opinions, if you won't give a shit about mine, by actually reading them.

Fascinating you know the real park Jimin behind the cameras. I hope you share your thoughts with him, not me next time. Thanks.

The funny little moments in front of the cam, like asking for kisses....

Jimins type in girl as per early year interview

Cute, shorter than him, long hair, nice

Jimins type in boys as per interviews....

Oh wait, why would they ever ask him that. Lol but he has been pretty clear with hints towards queerness/bi-ness. And he has stayed at one point to JK that JK is his type.... So perhaps next time you meet up with Jimin IRL, since you know him and all, make more an effort to get to know him better? Idk

Normally I'd just ignore you, but I'm so tired of all this bullshit. Take it to someone who cares.

[spot-the-ableism]

to set the record straight, as I have zero things to hide.

[IMAGE ID: a tumblr post by user crippled-peeper, it is a reblog chain of 3 posts. It reads “accuses me of “race faking” because I talked about being a refugee from Katrina checks my bio again first line: white man” next reblog reads “idk what’s more fucked up, that these bloggers are named “spot the antisemitism” or “ spot the ableism” or the fact that they are so racist and ableist they think the only way a white person could be a refugee is if they’re making it up” next post reads “ “you can’t be a refugee and disagree with me!!! Everyone knows that I am the arbiter of who is and isn’t a refugee as someone who lives in a gated community in the USA !!! Don’t you know I RUN A BLOG?!?!?” The tags read “#I’m so glad other people are im agreement that these kids are actual clowns not to be taken seriously at all” END ID:]

I never said or insinuated that you were not a climate refugee, nor that you were a racefaker

above is proof, I have not edited the posts nor want to. You have the reblogs to prove I in fact did not edit anything.

the things you are claiming I “did” were things that spot-the-antisemitism did and said.

intracommunity ableism is still ableism, hate speech against both Jewish and other disabled people is not okay, you can be both completely totally right to call out spot-the-antisemitism’s ableism and commit hate speech against random Jewish and disabled people. You can do both, nuance exists.

me calling you out on harmful behaviour and inciting hate speech is not a bad nor immoral thing I’d hope you would do it to me.

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if you are mad at me swearing at you may I remind you that you have committed way worse acts of hate speech and yet I gave you benefit of the doubt. People are allowed to swear at people.

i have said you may be having a horrible time right now due to medication troubles and that people should not harass you regardless. And that they should keep in mind that you have been through a lot and do not want harassment. I do also humbly apologise for swearing it was wrong of me to and not conducive to anything helpful.

if anything I have been way too forgiving, what you have said to many well meaning and non-ableist/normal disabled people has been utterly vile and yet do I use that against you? Yet do I say those same things towards you? Yet do I mean to hurt or harass you? No.

I live my life, you live yours, I care about you enough to actually call out people who do wish to hurt you. I shouldn’t, but I do. If you return my very calm and sincere response with the same energy and hatred that you usually do it is not in good faith.

you are having a hard time, a hard time always. And I do not wish to contribute to that. But I cannot stay silent and let others be hurt by what you do and you say. Words do effect reality, there are people behind these screens and I am one, and I am writing this sincerely.

again why am I ableist when I was the one to in fact call out and hold spot-the-antisemitism accountable, and explain why it was bad? I spotted the ableism, simple as that.

I am no wimp, or coward if you wish to call me horrible things I am proud to Bare it.

As I do with all things.

sincerely a disabled person who was told way worse things than this over the course of my childhood.

if you do say "KYS" or any variation of it I will be reporting you.

as that. is. hate. speech. and violent speech which. is. not. legal.

I have not discriminated against you nor malgendered you, I have only sweared at you at the worst (and called out that fakeclaiming and spewing violent hate speech is unacceptable), if anything I have been on your side on most of this.

this comes from a place of love, not hatred.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi :) i hear you give advice and i very much need some. I’m 15 and I live in a pretty (very) conservative christian area.

My older sibling is 19, and came out as trans to me like a year ago. Ngl I didn’t really know what that meant, cause we don’t learn about that stuff (except for your classic, anything that isn’t “normal” is wrong). But he just told me that he’s happier with he/him and with his new name. But he hasn’t told our parents yet, so I have to use the old stuff in front of them when he comes back for visits (he’s as uni) which feels gross cause I know he feels uncomfortable but it’s fine. 

I sort of thought the he/him thing would be weird, since that’s not how i’ve addressed him my whole life, but after a couple of months it was actually super easy. We call each other like twice a week, and I was worried we’d drifted apart after he told me but actually were closer than ever, I feel like I know him a lot better now. 

Oh but his old name, the one parents gave him, SUCKS. And now I can’t mock him for it cause he picked a new one, which seems unfair to me but I can come up with new material, i’m creative.

Anyway, he told me that he’s been saving up and he’s gonna get top surgery. He’s had a pretty good job since  school so I guess he’s been saving since then. I hear it’s expensive. 

But it made him decide to tell our parents. So when he came up and visited, just before he left, he told them.

That was last week. They reacted terribly, as we knew they would. And they’ve both been yelling about it a bunch. Saying stuff like “He (okay no they’re actually using she but I won’t be doing that even in writing cause it feels wrong cause it’s my brother) is totally insane” or “He needs therapy, we failed him.” or “How dare *old name* do this” or “he’s delusional” and a bunch of other awful shit like that.

So I have two options. I can try and encourage them to do little things like use he/him for my brother. Or call him their son instead of daughter. Or actually look at photos of him now (he very much doesn’t look like a girl anymore- idk how they didn’t realise tbh). Or how he always did little things like cutting his hair and hating dresses and other stuff like that.

I’ve often been able to help my parents be nicer about stuff. Like my friend who’s a lesbian, they hated her at first but now they’re nicer about it.

But maybe if I do that they’ll start yelling about corrupting me (as they’ve done in the past) and harass my brother worse and be even worse about it all. 

It’s hard to know which direction it’ll go.

And look I still don’t really get it. But also it makes sense, you know? It’s like the final puzzle piece being slotted in, all those things he used to do make sense now. 

My parents say I can’t interact with lgbtq+ stuff cause they’ll corrupt me. But like- not to be rude but, aren’t they corrupting me? My brother HAPPY. I don’t see how that’s wrong. And they’re the ones telling me I should be actively encouraging him to be- what, sad again? Uncomfortable in himself. 

I don’t know, i’m not totally sure I understand my parents or my brother. I got tumblr in the first place since it’s the only thing I could think of that’s online (so I could hide it) and probably has lgbtq+ people on it so I could- idk get used to it I guess. 

And now i’m here. 

When it comes down to it, I want my brother to be happy, and if he’s happier as my brother than my sister then I don’t see why I should care about him switching pronouns or whatever. 

So I want to try and help my parents see it like that too. And they often do see new sides to things when I point them out. So maybe id be helping.

But there’s also the chance they’d get more mad at my brother for corrupting me and that’d make him upset and that’s not what I want. 

So yeah, any advice? 

It’s kinda scary coming from my small town onto the giant internet of people i’ve been taught are weird. But you guys don’t seem that weird. I mean- you do but weird like i’m weird, not weird like ill. (Sorry if any of this seems rude btw, I might not get it but i’m trying really hard not to judge anyone, since it’s pretty clear to me that some of the things i’ve been taught aren’t correct). 

Also why do my parents think my brothers ill anyway? I know him, i’d know if he’s ill. Also i love history, and trans people are all over history. I mean they’re never said to be trans but watching my brother, it’s pretty obvious other people were like him. 

Anyway, thanks and have a good summer 💖

Hi hon!

I want to tell you, it sounds like you have a really good head on your shoulders and you're an amazing support to your brother. You should be so proud of yourself.

I think you need to think about what is best for you and your mental health. If speaking up to your parents about your brother could end in them getting mad at you, it might not be a good idea. You've been doing amazing at supporting him while staying quiet, and I know he knows you support him. It might be best for yout o quietly educate yourself online without making a fuss, until you aren't relying on your parents as much for money, food, and shelter- kind of like your brother did.

This also might be a good thing to talk to your brother about, too. Like you said, this could affect him, and he probably knows your parents well. He might have some good advice <3 But you don't HAVE to stand up to them if it's not good for you. It's okay to educate yourself, and be an ally in other ways <3

Naming you history anon <3

(also wish your brother luck on his top surgery for me!)

[teddykaczynski]

breast reduction thoughts:

1. i got mine mostly because of side effects from abilify, which can cause gynecomastia in men, and for me made my large DDD-ish chest (my best guess. it was binders back then) enlarge into an L cup (accurate. i got a professional bra measurement the same year as rhe surgery) within a month. i did have back pain that has improved since but i dont really think my back pain has ever been mainly caused by that.

2. healing was pretty ok, i was very out of commission the first 48 hours but after that i was pretty much normal, though i did take 3 full weeks to recover which i think was right (it was how much the surgeon recommended). i had drains for mine which werent terrible but im also not squeamish. i ate a lot of soft easy foods and sat around watching tv.

3. i chose a female surgeon ofc, and her PA was also a woman. but, once i got to the hospital and had half the drugs and i was about to go under they were like oh btw we’ll have these two male med students (well they were actually residents probably but still) assisting and observing. which still makes me uncomfortable to think about tbh, the anesthesiologist was also a man. idk how much control one could have realistically over that tbh

4. my nipples still have sensation, less than before but only a slight difference. i do have some nerve damage on the side of my chest, which is also where i have the worst aesthetic defect. i have pretty bad doggy ears, and i noticed them shortly after post surgery and the surgeon was like yeah thats just swelling itll go down!! well it hasnt. theres like… two obvious points, and it slopes over the rest of my side/abdomen. kind of hard to explain, and while its definitely there my insecurity about it is probably more in my head. ive mentioned it to women whove seen me naked and they were like oh i hadnt noticed at all. so idk. but yeah, my doggy ears have the most nerve damage. sometimes when its really hot outside and the rest of my skin is warm, i can put my hands under my shirt and those bits are cold to the touch. i have nerve pain very infrequently, but sometimes yeah itll feel like my boobs are being electrocuted for a few quick moments then it stops. or other things like that.

5. i do have scarring but you can barely tell and id probably have less if i had put scar oil on it especially shortly after surgery (whenever surgeon said i could) and continued to but i dont really care about that. she said though that emu oil is the best for scars if youre not a vegetarian. they didnt do skin grafts for my nipples, but post healing it really looked like my nipples had been cut all the way around and an amateur breast expert once examined my chest and concluded that they must have trimmed my areola to a more conventionally attractive socially acceptable areola radius. so idk. also post healing, one nipple got a sore/growth on the normal skin around the nip/areola but when it healed, that skin had been absorbed and turned into nipple type skin. so my nipples are uneven in shape a bit. i can probably still breastfeed but ill never know

6. i told my surgeon i wanted to be as small as possible. like an A/B cup. but she told me that due to the width of my breasts going that small would have a bad aesthetic result. so she wouldn’t go that small, which miffed me at the time but tbh she was right. like sometimes i think my shape would look more proportional if my breasts were slightly larger. like if i hadnt ever gone on ablify and had that growth i think my adult breasts would be slightly larger than they are now. so i guess yeah the surgeons arent miracle workers

7. they removed 15lbs total :) 7.5lbs each side :) 6.8kg total / 3kg a side :) 7.5lbs/3kg is the same weight as an average newborn baby :)

[snakes-on-skates]

she pin on my post till i tumblr blog

down there. ⬇️

hi this is my blog :p im Snakes

(pfp is from this post by @/beegswaz, header is also linked at the bottom of this post)

i go by any and all pronouns idc. she he they it any neos you think id like idk. mirror pronouns are fun too you can do that. if you want.

aspec/arospec bi sorta thing i guess

i am a furry also. just so you know. alterhumam/otherkin too. if you have any questions abt that sorta stuff i usually dont mind answering just be nice yknow

some of my general interests are art, video games, cartoons, etc.

i am definitely 100% normal about the antagonist Bill Cipher from gravity falls. totally. i do NOT think about him constantly because that would be abnormal. and im totally normal about him. (lying)

this blog is mostly reblogs but i do post my art :3 its under #my art ik soo original. if theres a character youd like me to draw ill probably do it as long as its a furry character im still practicing my human drawing skillz. and if youve seen me draw a character before you can ask for them because obviously im confident enough in my ability

i also make kandi!! i mostly just do singles right now but you can find those posts under #my kandi

spam liking/reblogging/interacting is always allowed. go nuts

i have a sideblog where i post about my OCs n stuff its pretty cool check it out here if u wanna @snakes-on-the-side

if you like incest, rpf, non-con, or shipping adults and minors then i dont like you

if you are racist, homophobic, transphobic, a terf, or a map then i dont like you

if theres anything specific you wanna know about me you can just shoot me an ask. unless its my address or something i wont give you that. also nonsense/funny/random asks are always okay we like having fun here /lh

not great at starting conversations but my dms are always open for mutuals and followers!!

mutuals if you are reading this: <3. yes that means you too. all of you. ur great.

i got my current header gif from @/divorcedfiddleford and its from this post

yayy yippie wahoo yaaaay weeeeee

(^ by @/banana-dawg)

(^ by @/neosprites)

(^ from this post)

[lesbiamano]

im back asking about the wildcard!futaba au. im interested to hear your royal trio dynamic! would haru enable all their impulsive ideas and tangents? maybe haru and sojiro talk about growing coffee beans,, that would be so fun. any hcs for how they spend their time? - 🦐

omg i didn't even see this until now, sorry! i wrote a whole rant about how this aus royal trio (futaba, sumire, ann) would kinda interact until it kinda dawned on me that maybe you mean akira, goro, and sumire and now i'm not so sure. i think i'm just a little stupid and understood this entire question wrong but. here's the au rant

honestly, i haven't sat down properly and thought of how their interactions would go yet. during 3rd sem i feel like sumire would be very nervous and hesitant about letting ann explore the metaverse with them (as the newbie and everything), since sumi knows of all the horrors in the metaverse and palaces and whatever, while futaba would be like lol chill. this girl can whip some serious ass. and ann does indeed whip ass. id like for them to have more interactions than actual in game royal trio, both before and after 3rd sem, i think they would be fun. like, teenage celebrity 'kasumi' yoshizawa, model ann takamaki, and,,,,,,, random shujin girl sitting down at a cafe and being totally normal with eachother. very hilarious. futaba would come up with some crazy stupid ideas and ann would be like girl! you're so right! let's do this reckless insane plan you came up with on the fly because you haven't been thinking straight since the rest of the phantom thieves left! and sumire is like. hey guys. you don't have to listen to me but maybe we should not do this. just my opinion. my brain stopped working so i can't think of more but i might add more into this later idk.

as to akira, goro, and sumire, i mean,, in the shortest way possible theyre crazier i guess. i mean sumi was the black mask here so go figure.

and about haru, she would totally be bonding with sojiro over growing coffee beans and the like,, he was very glad when futaba befriended haru because to him it was like. phew she's actually adjusting here and befriending seemingly normal average people? when haru is very much not normal or average but hey she's good with plants and grows coffee beans so sojiro doesn't mind her and tells futaba to hang out with more people like her lol

[liquidstar]

🔥🔥🔥🔥

For drinks, fandom, character design, and uh free choice for whatever you feel like bestie

Ok for drinks, I've actually been thinking about this all day- I saw a poll that said something like “have you ever been to a house party (with alcohol; no family parties)” and, well, maybe op meant it as two separate points of clarity but… it's normal to drink at family parties? Right? Ik it's totally not the point of the poll, but I've never been to a family party where there weren't drinks. Why would there not be drinks???? There should be drinks. Those don't have to be mutually exclusive.

I realize that you were probably asking me about drink preference opinions. I don't have any strong unpopular ones. My grandpa makes a mean moonshine though. We have it at family parties, you see.

TBH whenever I’m at parties, family or otherwise, or just at the club or a restaurant, my drink of choice is usually just “bring me something with 2 or 3 shots of vodka idk im just trying to get drunk.” im going somewhere this week that has once rejected my id bc i look young, so this time i’m bringing my whole passport. I think it’s at my parents house but i will get it. And so help me god i am going to drink this time. Thats not even an unpopular opinion just a personal grievance lol

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For fandom…. My unpopular opinion is that actually it’s best to just get into stuff a couple years after the peak popularity. I know some ppl feel like they missed out, but I think it’s better. You don’t have to deal with The Fandom People, but theres still stuff to engage with, and still a following of fewer dedicated ppl who weren’t just riding a fandom hypetrain. It’s more chill. Like, I am so sorry, but rn it’s dungeon meshi. I was really enjoying it at first, but the fandom made me wanna stop, at least for now. Mostly because I dislike the way people in it seem to look down on other works within the same medium, and that also does the work itself a discredit. But yeah, I wanna try to get back into it, but I need people to, like, relax first. Thats also why im able to peacefully enjoy rezero on tumblr, where theres like 12 ppl into it, so i dont have to deal w the annoying nerdboy fans who just talk abt "waifus" (its funny that my issues are "too pretentious" and "not pretentious enough" lol)

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My 3rd unpopular opinion is that fart jokes can be kinda funny but they have to be done well. im fresh off the heels of watching a movie with the kids, so thats why im thinking abt this. You can't just throw it in randomly it's about timing. And it has to know it's stupid. I think the key is it has to know it's stupid. BUT NOT GROSS. gross on its own its nothing. Adventure Time and Regular Show understand. Very deep opinions only here

[transnightfury]

👁️, 💭, and ⚡ for both shadow and riptide :3

☔ for shadow

🐸 for riptide

bonus: ⚔️ and ❗for harley!

YAAYYY!!!ALSO HARLEYMENTION YES

this is gonna be a long post bc i yap so ill put it under a cut. get ready for me not directly answereing questions at all everybodys favourite

👁️(how do people perceive your oc?) tbh .. i dont know? i have had someone think that riptide was gonna be some chill surfer dude and shadow be a stereotypical aloof emo boy LOL which i can totally see that. riptide is like 2 steps away from being a chill surfer dude...idk if that fits him as a hobby tho. in some alternate universe this is how they ended up being ACTUALLY. SHADOW WAS SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THAT !!!!!!!!!!!! but now shes the total opposite except shes still an emo boy

💭(How is their mental health? Do they struggle with guilt or shame?) im copy pasting these now bc im too lazy to write them out LMAO . hmmm. generally deepseaship r in that stage now wehre theyre Getting better. they r in a place where they feel safe and can be themselves and have good people around them they can trust so they dont struggle as much as they used to... shadow definitely out of the two of them i imagine would feel alot of guilt? she has a bad habit of being angry/lashes out easily and overprotective and maybe a bit impulsive and its lead to a few hiccups in their relationship.....shes very emotional so the guilt over those things she does and says get to her alot ..... ive been tryong to figure out how to rewrite their entire backstories recently so i can make those problems they have more obvious but ive been stuck cos its really hard to redo everything when they are So Deepseaship to me 🤷‍♂️

⚡(Does this oc have any unusual or “irrational” fears?) riptide is TERRIFIED OF BUGS. maybe its not unsual but i think its really funny. he tries to avoid killign them as much as possible and he makes shadow cup and paper them. and he hates thunderstorms. which i know. thats really funny bc its me. and he used to be one of my fursonas. for shadow?? im like sure she has at least one but i cannot think of any rn.

☔(How does this oc feel about rain?) SHE LOVES IT!!! and she loves thunderstorms lol so it balances it out between him and riptide. very important to mention that riptide is obsessed with rain but he hates the sound of thunder. i mean its water. from the sky. sorry i started talking about riptide this is about shadow....LOL.....shadow is the type to just stay inside and enjoy the weather like a normal person and then riptide is insane like me and goes out shirtless in the rain

🐸(What’s this oc’s sense of humor like?) fart and penis and poop

⚔️(How does this oc handle conflict?) unfortunately. i. have no idea? harley is still a pretty underdeveloped character in alot of places... her backstory is really only the building blocks right now and i havent really dug into how its effected her/how she handles anything like that in general .....IM SORRY.....

❗(What are the highest priorities to this oc (at a point in their life of your choosing)?) again . a question id need to flesh her out more abit over. i would just say something related to her and lucy or cross current but i dunno.. id like to answer with something more personal to her. she isnt selfish at all realy but she. hm. how do i put this. its on the tip of my tongue. she would 1000% do anything for her friedns and shes extremely caring about them but she would focus on herself before anything else (unless theres more important things to look out for). i totally know theres an easier probably one word description for that but thats how im explaining it rn LOL. i guess shes just confident about herself? is that what im trying to say ?? not quite the question but i hope that answers it enough FJNKSDF whatever her highest priority is, it would be personal towards herself, rather than me just saying "the other people in her life" obviously she wants to care for them and shes probably one of my most caring/overprotective ocs i can think of skjshdmddj

[dykeyote]

ok my dndads queer hc post randomly gets notes but i disagree w many of the takes now so im updating it . spoiler warning theres a WHOLE lot of lezzies . just doing the dads kiddads and teens HOWEVER i will say that mark likely is for sure a lezzer

darryl: bisexual and probably the most cisgender one here but he's actually SO cis that it becomes almost gnc . he/him

ron: transhet guy but he thinks his transition is like very unique to him and everyone else is doing it the exact same as each other so he doesnt really get that hes Transgender bc he thinks everyone else is doing it in a really different way than him all together . not in an angsty way hes perfectly okay w that . he/him

henry: trans bi guy we know this to be true . he/him but if you called him they/them prns he would be like well yknow ive never thought about that before but you know what go right ahead (: he doesnt exactly enjoy it but he appreciates just how gosh-darn nonbinary positive you are that he'd still encourage it

glenn: bisexual and like .... hes cis he doesnt really care abt gender much but when nick came out as trans he definitely said something about like . "dude if i was trans? id totally use they/them pronouns thats sick as fuck" and then moved on and this sort of haunted nick for a while . he/him but again he doesnt really care

jodie: cis and bisexual but in such a boring way that he might as well be straight

sparrow: tgirl lesbian who was out at one point but is not now for Normalcy Reasons . she/her in theory

lark: transneu nonbinary and aroace . not out about either of these things but not really as a like Actively Closeted thing they just dont really think abt it . they/he in theory

terry jr: tgirl lesbian also but this time out AND butch . she/he

grant: gay of course . and like .... he is cis and this wont change but he'd be a good deal happier if he was more gnc i think

nick: tguy butch lesbian . he mostly but he doesnt really care that much

link: kinda-stealth tboy (not really intentionally or anything he just doesnt really see it as relevant that often so most people dk) and gay . he/him but he doesnt really care that much

taylor: honestly idk what i think is going on w his gender but i DO know hes aro and bi . give me some time to think on that ok

scary: out nonbinary tfem lesbian!!!!! we know this!!!!!! she/it and when she writes her pronouns down she always writes the it in VERY BIG AGGRESSIVE HANDWRITING to make it clear that its SUBVERSIVE AND WEIRD

normal: bisexual tgirl . currently in a like . Questioning Phase in s2 i feel like ..... her turmoil abt being a Normal Son is tied to that . any pronouns but she primarily

hermie: bigender (girl + boy) gaybian :3 was an open bisexual tguy originally but around the poison ivy era had some Gender Complexity . he/she but certain Method Personas have diff pronoun leans whereas normal herm is pretty 50/50

[confessioncivilization]

JUST REWATCHED ALL OF PVP CIV HERES MY THOUGHTS (spoilers for pvp civ up to s2e2 ofc)

okay so minor thing but, pvp language guy is the one who drugs evbo when he gets kidnapped and stuff which i knew but like, boooooo i live in my own world so i pretend zam did that lol

btw where did pvp language guy get the potions. i dont think theres nausea pots in sword civ, and tabi had pots so maybe axe civ has pots???

um ok so, i feel like there was a bit of a plot hole. with armor. so , like…. why do most iron swords and all the diamond swords and tabi and clown NOT wear chestplates? for iron swords maybe it makes sense, bc its usually peaceful and all. i feel like diamond swords should have armor though??? like just in case yk? and of ANYONE id think the axes would definitely have armor. they are super aggressive so that would be big for them. but they just DONT. even clown and tabi, DIAMOND axes. maybe its not available for them???? but also, tabi HAD a chestplate, and if you have a diamond weapon you can keep your items on the gold level, so tabi would still have her iron chestplate (probably would hide it in her inventory, but wouldnt she put it back on once she left sword civ?). BUT SHE DOESNT WEAR IT?? maybe it disappeared magically or something but also then there wouldnt be armor in axe civ apparently? and the bows didnt have it. ugh idk just bothered me. maybe some lore reason exists but rn feels like a massive plot hole. maybe all the civs have different shopping stuff and axes just got pots instead of armor sigh idk..

so there ARE layers to bow civ but its not like based on different versions of the weapons. WHY DIDNT THE AXES FIND THEM DUDE?? are there like actually secret areas down there??? maybe something axes cant hit bc its too far away and designed for bows. idk dude. the ladders down were NOT that well hidden so i feel like the axes couldve totally found everybody unless there were secret areas

wtf are the eternal weapons for bows tridents n shields ?? like theres ONE version. does it just have unbreaking 100000000. thorns shield would be cool but thats not a thing, maybe loyalty trident and idek for bow. would say infinity but they lowkey already got that, maybe its just a crossbow?????? visually doesnt seem like itd be different from normal ones. perhaps thats why eternal bow wasnt shown maybe evbo hasnt figured out what to do for it smh.

saw this in another post but axes having access to logs as blocks because axes are utility as well as pvp?!?!?! what if axe civ is just lumberjack civ and they all cut trees all day. here in lumberjack civilization nobody chops fo- anyways. 

parrot was EXILED guys the divorce arc is real i think. either toxic or sad doomed yaoi would be nice thanks

WHAT GUARD TOLD THE BOWS ABOUT THE RESPAWNING POWER??? “that guard said ferre has it-” is that OUR guard or a different one? havent seen any other guards other than guard friend in bow civ so ??? also how would guards know that. they arent on diamond level. i mean evbo totally couldve told guard friend but idk, also seawatt seemed like he couldve already bribed him a little before but also im not sure thats what actually happened its probably just cuz of weird wording. but are there other guards? would like to know…

its also just crazy how much better the production is cuz i just watched the herobrine series and the improvement is ABSURD!!!! its actually awesome super cool to see. yeah i JUST watched it for the first time but wahhhhh im a new fan i literally only started watching evbo for park civ and i found it at the tail end of its virality and people have thought im a longtime fan because i am CRAZY and nope im not im a FAKE FAN . NORMALIZE BEING A FAKE FAN >:(

anyways that was my ramble for now yay yay yay

-pvp civ lunch person

woahhhh i only half read it bc oh god thats a lot of text but something that stuck out to me was the chestplates. For the diamonds, I was thinking that bc they’re at the bottom and never open the door, they don’t face many threats, so there’s no need to protect themselves. And the axes, I’m thinking they think they’re superior and much more powerful than the others, so the other weapons pose little threat to them. Hehehe i’ll go back later and reread all of it fr this time. Its late rn though i should probably go to bed :b

[slut4thebroken]

Hey same anon that was talking abt your speech👋

Im not saying its your fault that people pick on you, its definitely not your fault that they're assholes. However you said your tone was the main issue for this and I still think that that is something that's controllable. Again not saying this like it excuses them cuz it doesn't but im saying while adhd isn't something you can control, things like tone can be controlled.

And I wasn't saying all this so that you could accommodate for people, I was coming from the perspective that you could accommodate for yourself. Like this whole situation with the mean classmates, im a firm believer in saying something so they dont feel like they can continue to display their bad behaviors. (Side note: I understand masking is telling you to basically copy these people but the people you're copying are rude so im not blaming you)

But my advice wasn't that you mask. I have a husband who suffers the same as you and he used to mask with me and pretty much everyone in his life. I understand masking isn't ideal and I understand that you guys think about every little social interaction. My advice was to be comfortable with yourself but also look more inward and think that maybe you are rude during those interactions. Obviously I don't follow you around everywhere so idk how these things go. But from what I've seen from my husband is being comfortable with yourself and communicating things thru does wonders for both parties to understand each other and being comfortable with yourself id say limits the masking.

Also I figured id give you an explanation on why I thought you were rude since you were confused. I understand you were self hating in the moment but things that came off as rude and like you resent people were things like your tags when you said "so they should know by now that I cant fucking control it and thats how I talk" (which I totally understand this my husband was a jerk when we met too. The issue socially is probably youre too literal. Its not an easy fix but it is fixable from experience but saying things like "I can't control it" is very limiting towards yourself.) The reason this is rude is bc its rude to you obvi but also in your mind it seems like you kind of subconsciously expect people to just tolerate these things when they are not normal to "normal people" (you can educate me on the correct term btw cuz I honestly hate saying normal ppl I just can't think of what the correct term is called at the moment, im not hating)

You also made assumptions that people immediately get annoyed with you or think you're annoying and there was something you said abt people not feeling the same as you abt certain things you like. 1. Making assumptions abt how people feel abt you is always iffy cuz you just came up with that answer yourself you didn't ask them. It kinda shows how you view people or what you think they think which is most likely not the case. 2. For the not liking similar things, im not sure if these people don't have similar interests with you at all or what but a lot of times in life its not gonna be common to find someone with the same amount of interest in something as you do. Not saying its impossible tho I just wouldn't put that pressure on people. Them being fake however is a different thing but I wouldn't know if they were being fake with you or not. There's a lot of gaps with this because we don't know each other but im not trying to be mean or hateful and im not saying all this like its definite, you could take it or leave it. But I hope there's no hard feelings i just 1. Mainly wasnt okay with how you were talking to yourself but 2. I also did think you were being a bit rude to just people in general cuz ive been there myself. Obviously were different people and im not saying our situations are similar at all but how I took it was that while you hate these things abt yourself, you were also blaming people for things that are (whether we agree or not) in your control. But I could be totally wrong and thats okay.

I hope this didn't come off as rude tho cuz I dont intend for it to be but if it was im sorry. Its not often but sometimes I see things I have the full intention of just being helpful but I end up being the opposite. I do genuinely hope that these issues don't continue to bother you up mentally tho. (Also sorry that these have all been lengthy).

Please enlighten me on how that’s controlable. If you were talking nicely to other people, just trying to engage in conversation and be a good friend, and people constantly said that to you, what would you do? If you’re already consciously trying to sound nice. What else is there to do?

And I was comfortable with myself. My parents stopped saying I have an attitude when I was just talking a long time ago, none of my long term friends have ever made it seem like something that was a huge problem, even my ex understood that I literally just sound like that. But now I’m constantly reevaluating every interaction, trying to figure out if I actually sounded rude or if I just thought I did, or if maybe they reacted a certain way because my tone didn’t match what I was trying to say. And I’m fucking tired. I don’t know what else I should do when I’m already intentionally trying to not sound rude other than just not fucking talk at all lmao which I just realized that I’ve lowkey started doing.

And I am too literal… that’s why I don’t pick up on things like I mentioned in my original post. There’s nothing I can do to train myself to not be literal so I’m not exactly sure how I would fix that. The term is neurotypical and I’m not saying they should tolerate it but when I quite literally apologize and correct my tone immediately after saying something that could be seen as rude, I personally think it’s a dick move to continue to be mean about it rather than just say “thanks for the apology. Good to know.” And I appreciate when people tell me that something I said sounded off because then we can fix the miscommunication and also I don’t want anyone to think I don’t like them because of that one interaction. But after having this conversation (“wtf. You don’t have to be so mean about it.” “I’m sorry, I wasn’t trying to be mean. I meant it like this__.”) so many times, I don’t understand why they would continue to respond like that. Some people have started saying stuff along the lines of “lmao girl that did not sound how you wanted it to” and I apologize again every time.

As for the making assumptions part, clearly you don’t know what it’s like to just be able to tell that someone doesn’t like you lol. I’ve delt with that my whole life (as have most neurodivergent people), I’m rarely wrong about that stuff for myself personally. And I understand that people have different interests… that’s not what I was saying. What I was saying was I don’t like how I’ll get excited about something and start talking about it cause I get riled up and then I realize that I’m talking a lot and that they don’t care. I’m not good at stopping that before it starts and the only reason I put that in the original post is because I literally did it earlier that day lmao.

It did come off as rude and it actually really hurt my feelings. In the future, maybe ask if someone wants help rather than giving unsolicited advice about a situation you barely know anything about. Never in my original post did I ask for advice, I was literally just venting after having a really rough day. And while I appreciate that it was your intention to help, you should just be more thoughtful moving forward.

[royallygray]

Royal remember when we would send asks to each other with a bunch of questions? Well I'm doing that again now. As always, no pressure and feel free to just answer a few instead of all of them :D

Do you keep plants? And do they actually live or do they just die?

What's your favorite instrument?

Something you wanna do this summer?

Do you have a bucket list? And if you do, what's the thing you wanna do the most on it?

What songs always make you feel better?

What type of art do you enjoy making the most? (Drawing, knitting, writing, etc)

One of the best things you've ever bought?

What year of your life was your favorite, and why?

What color is your room painted? And what color do you want it to be painted, if you'd want to change it.

Are you really silly (really silly)?

Did you know that you have a pretty singing voice and I love listening to the stuff you make? And that it makes me really happy that you get really happy from me saying that?

Do you have a favorite scent, and if you do what is it?

My noise is so itchy right now. I hate having allergies to outside and dust lol. Do you have allergies too?

What's your favorite meal with chicken?

What's a weird collection you have/had?

What's your favorite sea creature?

Okay that's all for now!! Feel free to send these same ones or different ones back to me lol. I'm getting fishies todayyyy am very happy. Also I just gave my Grandma's dog Hermione a bath, so I now smell like wet dog. But it's okay. She had SO MUCH fur that needed to get off. She was shedding so much.

I keep trying to figure out somewhere to work around me thats not loud but. do you know how impossible that is. it's so bad. Like. Sensory issues suck

But it's okay

Because I'll be okay

I just want money cause I want a crested gecko lmao

But they're so cuteeeee!!!!

Okay this is me actually leaving (probably)

Bye Starsightttttttt

- Mysterious <3

OOOH QUESTIONS

[do I keep plants] Not really, but I keep flowers that people give me/are trinkets at fairs or smth. I have a dead one on my desk from a fair thingy that I totally need to throw away, and I have one in the freezer that was a gift from a fellow cast member of a play I was in. The one in the freezer still looks intact.

[what's my favorite instrument] Mysterious how am I supposed to answer this :( I play clarinet. I have an oboe that I'm trying to learn this summer, but I haven't been doing that a lot lol.

I have a list of instruments I want/want to learn. I used to play violin but I don't anymore bc we returned the violin and I would like to pick it up again. I'd also like to learn viola because it looks cool but apparently they have an entire different fucking clef?? called an alto clef??? like wtf why would they do that to me

I'd also like to learn saxophone. Either soprano, alto, or tenor, idrc. But it's a cool instrument. Id also like to play bass clarinet because it is literally the same as normal clarinet just Big. it's in the treble clef and everything. It's just Big clarinet. I would love to learn guitar. it seems like such an important piece for like background music on tracks and just. I wanna learn it. and its the most common thing that people use for chords. I have a piano that I fuck around with, but I don't know how to use chords and shit but I know how to play the shit out of the melody.

I also need to learn to read the bass clef. I played flute in 4th grade and I'd kind of like to play it again

that's a lot of words about instruments lol😅 idk what my favorite one is but I hope that was enough info to make up for it

OMG WAIT. KAZOO.

Also my dad wants me to learn piccolo. which is actually interesting

[smth I wanna do this summer] um. idk. well I wanna try to learn oboe, as said. OMG ALSO

So I have the goal of transcripting the life series and I wanna do that :] I'm failing so far but ITS ALRIGHT YKNOW I GOT TIME also I need to clear out my storage bc I have too much shit on my phone and 2 ipads (I don't have a laptop :()

[do I have a bucket list, and what's on it] uhhh not rly but I wanna meet you irl someday. also prolly go to Europe. Maybe also either Taiwan or China so I can improve my Chinese a lot. also I do wanna have a first kiss because like I'm intrigued. what does it feel like. OOH also I wanna write a full fledged story or smth. and a story in Mandarin Chinese. because like. you'd think I'd be fluent enough after ten fucking years but NOOOOO

also last night apparently I had a dream where an author (maybe Brandon fuckin Sanderson?? idk) wrote The Rescue Princesses and also was mentioned in the Aru Shah books like. what the fuck was that dream. it was weird ASF (I just saw the Aru Shah books on my shelf and I was Confused)

[what songs always make me feel better] okay okay okay. So. If William Gold wasn't a fucking piece of shit, Warsaw, Your Sister was Right, For Memories, Concrete, You'll Understand When You're Older. Not necessarily make me feel better, but like. resonate somewhere deep within my soul. As it is, I feel like throwing up when I hear his voice. Genuinely, acoustic Sex Sells came on a few days ago and I was like "oh nice it's a good song I can totally listen to it right" and then he started singing and then I like. couldn't it was so bad.

Someone to You by Banners. Just. it's so. sjqieowhads

Also In My Dreams by Precious Jewel Amor is really good

Honestly Get Used to It by Ricky Montgomery. like one of my favorite songs. also I'm aware that most of these aren't rly happy--

STARLIGHT BY TAYLOR SWIFT. IT IS. A BOP.

[what art do I enjoy making the most] I like to crochet :) i also like drawing. one of my favorite mediums is oil pastels lol. But my favorite has to be crocheting bc I use it as a stim and also like. it makes warm things :D I tried to make a sweater and if you scroll to the second post I ever made on this blog I think you can find it lol. I'll continue it some day. ooh but I do also kind of enjoy writing. but I need to have the like brain flowing. which I almost never have. so my answer is still crocheting :D

[one of the best things I've ever bought] Tied between my Techno plushie ($40) and life series hoodie ($55). mcyt hyperfixation made me broke o7 but it was totally worth the money

[what year of my life was my favorite and why] damn idk. I don't rly have a favorite, but it's more. this happened. idk.

Probably 2021, if I had to say. It was 3rd Life, Among Us, me finding dsmp, just a ton of things and I started figuring more out about myself. pretty decent year. but this year (2023-2024) was also pretty good. I made a lot of friends

[what color is my room painted, and what would I like to change it to] okay. so. like AGES ago we were gonna paint my room. and we painted two walls. we got light blue on the east and marshmallow white on the west. the other walls (North and south) are painted VERY VERY light pink so light it is white. since that's the color my sister had. we were gonna paint the other window wall (north) blue and the non-window wall white (south) but it never happened. so now I have mismatched walls.

The blue is rly nice, but if I moved, I think I'd paint three walls light lavender, and one the marshmallow white.

purple is god tier

[am I really silly (really silly)] yes. sometimes. like inside my soul yes outside my soul not rly

[did you know

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